Nov. 1st Rambles {Posted on the 2nd} {Sheesh!}

November has snuck upon me once again.  On the 5th I'm gonna be older than the hills - at least that's how it feels {no offense to any that are currently that age or older}... it's just how it feels to me, & I'm rambling now, aren't I?  Sorry, friends, it must be that old age thing coming on.  But in all sincerity {I think I just unintentionally quoted a bit of a Jamie Grace song - no copyright infringement intended} - Where was I?  Oh yes, in all sincerity, my age isn't all that old at all - & I can't help but wonder if it would feel quite as old if I was married & burping babies right now.  When society {i.e.: people/TV/church folk/the world/random strangers/family/music/etc.} deem it the "thing" to do... & I start to believe it & thus feel abnormal/left behind {minus Kirk Cameron}/etc... that the normal progression of events is to be married soon after college {if not during} & starting a family soon after...  Where was I, again?  

Anyhow, I think my light bulb moment paralleled the instance where I asked myself {cause I talk to myself quite a lot, in general}, "Who cares what this world thinks?  Isn't God in charge & taking care of all that?"  The answers can be freeing... especially to the latter pondering.  But, yet, people will try to yank my chain & obliterate {don't think I've ever used that word on here before} my light.  I just gotta remember to guard that switch & when it's compromised {cause, hey, it's pretty much a certainty that it will (multiple times, I might add (sadly))}to reach up in the darkness, feel for the cord, & turn it back on.  I know I've rambled & fallen through some rabbit holes like Alice, but whatever you're going through that's just plain ugly tough, remember to ask yourself (like I did), "Isn't God in charge & taking care of that?"  The answer is yes, even in the dark, sister.

Rambly Yours - The Almost One-Year Older,
-Bess-    

P.S.: Here's that Jamie Grace song...