Driving Myself Crazy (Literally)

..Purity & Romance Month Kickoff..

Okay, so here I was, I had purposefully missed the turnoff to my street, & was following Nancy Drew-style, the car in front of me all because of a guy & what appeared to be a scuba diving sticker. Hold it! Rewind! I’m not making since, am I? Let me start at the beginning…

It all started a few months ago at work. My little part-time job takes me to different places around my city – it’s a wherever they need me kinda thing. At one of the places a red-headed guy caught my eye. I’m not sure the exact moment it happened or if it was even on the first visit, but eventually I had the makings of a major crush on this guy.

Now, my jobs at this place happened to become more & more frequent, but my position gave me no major reason to introduce myself to this guy or anything like that, but I kept thinking, “Could this be the one?” I found myself praying about it, “If it was God’s will then let it be…& please help me with these feelings, Father.” At my age – early twenties & recently out of college, with no feeling of being closer to the marriage altar than a cow in pink polka dot pajamas – I’ve begun to wonder, “Is this the one, Lord?” every time I meet a new male. Yes, I know, crazy right? Anyhow, I REALLY thought my red-headed knight in shining armor was the one…even though we had only shared a couple words & I doubt he even knew my name. Yes, even crazier I know. I didn’t even know this guy, but I had found out a few little snippets of info on him (to keep the extent of my craziness a mystery I won’t share how I unearthed these details=). One major clue I learned was that he scuba dived in his spare time…isn’t that just like him! =) Oh, wait, I hardly know the fellow. Well, craziness like this can lead you to do crazy things. Back to the main thoroughfare…

So on my way home from work, when I spotted what appeared to be a little scuba diving character on the bumper in front of me & I casually looked & saw what appeared to be red hair peeking out from behind the driver’s seat…I did what any normal love-struck girl would do – NOT – I followed him. I’m not sure what I was exactly thinking…what this would do to make this would-be knight mine…how long I would follow him…or anything. A mile or so after I missed my turnoff, it hit me: What am I doing? Is this the kind of man God has in store for me, someone that I have to sneakily follow to get to notice me? Do I want to be a girl who chases after guys, literally? Am I that desperate for love & attention? What about my Heavenly Father who provides me with all the love & attention I need? Do I chase after Him like this…am I willing to go the extra mile to find Him – the true King of my heart? Am I letting God be the King of my heart or am I dethroning Him for some imperfect male who doesn’t even know my name? These countless questions led me to create Purity & Romance month here at Bess’ Bag. This June we’ll look at these questions & more, search out the truth, & celebrate purity & romance God’s way…the best way…no car chases necessary (NOTE: I maintained the speed limit in my silly pursuit=). Now that it’s summer, my part-time job is over & I’ll likely never see my would-be-prince charming again, but I know God’s plans (& timing) are best.

Love (From the Sometimes Crazy),
-Bess-

June posts from here on out will be almost 100% concerning purity & romance...I'll probably work in at least one Nancy Drew post for Grace's Nancy Drew reading event (click the black & white book cover in my sidebar)...I think Miss Drew was a great role model for modesty & purity! Be sure to check back later this evening for my Tuesday Tip (yep, it's about purity & romance=), head over anytime this month to "chat" at the "Girl Talk" page found under my header (at top of blog) & share your thoughts on waiting, + listen to love songs all June long...some songs are to our Heavenly Father, while others concern human love (sometimes it's hard to tell which song is which) - I couldn't help adding in a few romantic Disney favorites & more, too! I've got lots of fun planned for this month, so come back soon!